September 1st of 2010, My Saddest September 1 Ever?

          Exactly 116 days before Christmas.  Today , the 1st of September, many people, most specially in the Philippines,  are celebrating this day to welcome the  Christmas season.  I remember when I was still young, my Dad would play his favorite Christmas carol album as early as 7 o'clock in the morning, a tradition that my family has been doing  up until now.

   
           I can't wait til everybody in this building is awake so I can play a Christmas carol . Some lively and happy Christmas songs to start my day.  But all these happy and joyful thoughts came to a halt when i started watching a live streaming of a regular early morning TV program in the Philippines.  They featured a children's choir caroling, people celebrating on the streets and the TV hosts are exchanging gifts. They look so happy.   I then realized that every year, i celebrate Christmas in different ways since I left the Philippines in 2004.  And  as the years pass by, I'm getting closer and closer to spending this special day alone.  Last year, 2009, I celebrated Christmas with my Bebee.  Yes, just me and my Bebee.  It was my 6th  Christmas away from my family in the Philippines, 1st Christmas without friends to celebrate it with.  But I was still happy last year, knowing that i celebrated it with my love one.  But how about this year's Christmas?  I know for a fact that my Bebee wouldn't be here to celebrate it with me.  So I guess I have to deal with it.  Sad but true, my friends, I'm spending this year's Christmas alone.  Me, myself and I.  This thought of being alone has somewhat changed the way i look at September 1.  It used to be a happy day for me until this year.  I asked myself, "what is His plan for me?"  But if I really have to go through this loneliness to someday achieve the happiness that I've been longing for, "Lord, so be it."
  
            If there's anybody here who's been spending their Christmas alone, please welcome me to the club (lol).  And if there's anybody here who's about to spend the Chrismas alone, don't feel bad, you are not alone.  Smile for we are not really alone. God lives within our hearts.